Okay, I have been putting this post off for long enough. You guys have been SO SWEET with all of your messages, and I would be lying my butt off if I said they didn’t make me feel really good. One of the main things I’ve always tried to do on this blog (and in real life) is be completely honest, and before I started the blog I was definitely an open book. I was overly honest, and sometimes probably shared a little too much. Looking back, I wouldn’t change a thing and I would be the be the exact same way because being honest and vulnerable is what I believe real connection and life are all about.
One of the main reasons I’ve been putting this post off is because I have felt some shame and possibly even a little fraudulent writing a post about my weight loss. I say that because I feel like the majority of the weight loss hasn’t come from exercising, eating super healthy, and being honest I didn’t plan to blog about it. And when I look back at that statement, I think for most of us, life isn’t a fairytale and it’s far from perfect or what most of us would consider blog worthy. Either way, I want to be open about things, especially when you all have been asking about the weight loss.
So, I’ve never tried to keep it a secret, as far as my struggles with anxiety, depression, and ADHD. I have had all the symptoms of ADHD and anxiety since childhood with the exception of depression. That seemed to come after Carson’s birth over 13 years ago. Either way, I have sought out treatment and have been treated for all of the above for pretty much my entire adult life and over the past year my anxiety and depression just hit an all time high.
There is a lot going on in my life that is bringing on a lot of stress and anxiety right now. I wish I could discuss it all in as much detail as possible, but I just can’t at this time so I hope you all can be understanding. I know one of biggest things that is weighing me down and stressing me out is the fact that we’re in the middle of a lawsuit regarding our house and have no clue whatsoever when it may be over!!! I had no idea how lawsuits worked when it comes to your home, but clearly they take a very long time.
That said, for the past four months or so I have not felt very hungry, but I knew I had to eat or that would only make everything worse mentally. I am normally a stress / depression eater, so this is new to me and at some point I decided to take the well learned advice from my past, as far as healthy weight loss and apply that to my much smaller appetite.
I really did plan to take pictures and try to document everything I’ve been eating, but life has been so busy (especially with a toddler) that I just couldn’t make it happen the way I wanted. Luckily, most of the meals I’ve been cooking and eating are things I ate in the past when I was working out and eating really healthy so I’m just going to share those with you for now.
And if you’re interested, I’ve actually been taking pictures of my meals and snacks this past week and I can do another post with exactly what I’ve been eating. Y’all just let me know in the comments or on Instagram if this is something you want me to do another post on.
* Avocado toast with salt, pepper, and red pepper flakes
* 3 eggs scrambled
* 1 slice of Peanut Butter Toast and half of a banana
* Basic I know, but fresh blueberries and watermelon are my favorite this time of year!
* String Cheese
* Quick bites (my favorites are these with the cranberries and cashews)
* Avocado chicken salad (I am not a huge fan of mayo, but this recipe is SO good)
* Half of an Italian Wrap from Publix
* Salad with leftover grilled chicken or steak (this dressing is the best and pretty healthy considering it’s ranch)